I'm getting stress day by day ..
wats wrong with me?
i've been giving attitude to everybody ard me ..
wats been going on wit me?
i'm reali sori people ..
i should have control ma emotions ..
problems have been coming up one by one ..
and i'm having a headache almost everyday ..
i dun used to be like tis ..
wat actually had made me to be like tis ..
i dun know!!
kla , till here ..ANNYOUNG!

WAT EXACTLY IS GOING ON WIT ME?!!
I AM SO TIRED!!!
AND I DUN KNOW WAT TO DO!!
I TRIED VERY HARD TO SMILE , BUT I CANT!!!!!!
I TRIED VERY HARD TO STAY HAPPY , BUT I CANT!!!!
DYING IS THE ONLY WORD I CAN THINK OF NOW!!!
I'M VERY STRESS REDI!!! I HAD ENOUGH OF EVERYTHINK!!
I JUST WAN TO HAVE A REST , A LONG2 REST!!!!

Ran @ 4:13 PM

Skool was bored ...
and i was not in the mood la ..
i kept quiet all the way ..
i dunoe wad happen to me nowadays ..
I'M JUST NOT IN THE MOOD LA!!!
i'm sorry people if i ever ignore you all ..
haish ..sigh2 ..i feel like dying so much sia!!
i'm not happy at all living in this world ..
i can never find back the smile i had lost animore ..
i'm under alot of stress and i dunoe wad to do!!
Life is meaningless to me now ...
nobody can make me happy like i used to be animore ..
everything is gone , never can i find them back again ..
I'M SO DEVASTATED!!!
kla ..no mood redi sak ...ANNYOUNG!!

Ran @ 8:19 PM

Halo people!! i am updating here ..
todae no school but have sports day ..
our sports day was held at clementi stadium ..
suppose to reach there by 7.30am ..
but esther and me purposely late sia ..
we ard 7.10am still go eat macdonald breakfast ..
hahahx ...so we left ard 7.45am like that la..
and huiqin msg me ..she also late la ..
so we meet at the bus stop outside stadium there lor ..
and by the time we go in , its alrd 8.10am i think ..
teachers dun even care lo ..so aports day for me was bored la ..
and i was sad too ..Moodswing sia!!
dun wan mention it redi ...so i was sitting thr listening to mp3 ..
haiish ..after sports day end , it was raining heavily ..and we walked in the rain..
hahahx ..all totally wet la ..den we go take cab go westmall ..
meet tuck keen there and went to watch "haunted school"
wow ...damn scary la ..hahahx ..but quite nice ..
after that go walk2 at there den go back home ler ...
hahhax ..was quite tired today ..so goink rest early ..
oks ..till here ..ANNYOUNG!!

Ran @ 10:18 PM

School was perfectly right ...
nothing happened , and the atmosphere was as tense
as ever ..hahhax ..
we get our progress report today ...
and i failed 2 subjects out of 6 ...
i failed poa and combined science!!
here is the marks for ma progress report ::
eng::57
chinese::67
maths::55
science::39
combines humanities::50
poa::17
Lol ..its really bad this time round ..
and i'm gonna work hard for mid year ...
okies ..till here then ..BB ..ANNYOUNG!!

Ran @ 11:13 PM

This morning first period was english...
3 periods ..and i felt very bored ..
as usual , the teacher is toking rubbish and
i dun even understand a thing!!
and school dismissal was early today ..
thru-train starts at 245pm ...
so i was with Tuck Keen & YipBei in classroom ...
and YipBei was having fun and she turns totally insane!!
she keep all the tables & chairs lying on the floor
and she splash water all over the place la ...Lol ..
MAD-GIRL!! and the 3 of us threw papers all around
and ended up we need to clear up the mess!! hahhax ..
so we help to sweep up all the papers and dump it into the rubbish bin ..
and after that , we went canteen to have a drink ..
hahhax...after we all drink liao , me and Tuck Keen go leave our cups
to YipBei ..and she end up with no choice so she help us go put the cups lor ..
hahhax ..Fun!! so the both of us ran away from her lor ..and she chase after
us ..and yea , we were really high la today!! and after that , Tuck Keen & me
go for thru-train ..and after that , back home!!!
We were really enjoying ourselves today in school la ..
and we decided to play hide-and-seek in school next tuesday!!
hahhax ..seriously , i'm very happy to be able to have the chance to
play & stay with her again!!! Thank God!!<3

Ran @ 9:28 PM

Ello!!! people i'm updating here ..
so yea ..it was raining tis morning when i'm on ma way
to skool ..hahhax ..so was half drenched when i reach skool ..
lols ..hahhax ..i enjoy walking in the rain la ...
so lessons as usual ..its just that ..
i today abit crazy la ...i feel so much like goink up 2nd floor
thr walk2 ...so i went up for alot of times today redi ..
hahhax ..i went up wit pinting ...and i saw zulaiha ..
wakakas (= she shout at me la from inside her klass ...
lol ..she kewl sia!! hahhax ..love you leha!!!<33
so well ...after skool headed back home ..
and yea ..tmr have thru train remedial ...so onli can go home ard
4+ lor ...so well ..its okie la ...i still enjoy the lesson ..
okies ..till here ..ANNYOUNG!!
Love You Leha!!<33

Ran @ 4:56 PM

Halo people!!
i'm updating ma blog here ...
so yea!! ytd nite was alone at home ..
and i chat wit fwen in msn till ard 1am ..
hahhax ...and i slept ard 130am ...
wow ..hahhax ..and yea!! i'm so touched & happy ytd ..
hahhas ..thanks for everything ..harts eu & love ya!!
hehes ..(= okay , now i'm going out wit fam ...
to have dinner and all sorts of things ...
okies ..till here ..ANNYOUNG!!<3

Ran @ 5:23 PM

I'm updating here people!!
so well ..i stayed at home whole day today ..
was chatting with fwenns in msn ...
and it was quite bored ...cos never go out!
so yea!! also had been chatting with new fwenn ..
hahhax ..okok ..maybe now goink watch TV!
okies ..till here ..ANNYOUNG!!

Ran @ 4:10 PM

Wake up at 620am tis morning and bathe all this
then off to skool ..and first period was chemistry ..
wah ..bored lar ...cant stand it ...
after chemistry was 2 periods of maths ...
and i did pay attention in klass ...
cause i promised leha that i will try ma best to improve
ma maths ...so YEA!!! & after maths was PE ...
ms chai took over our klass ...and we were asked to run canal
again ...wad sia!!! so ran .. but halfway , i feel giddy sia ...
so i stop at ferst round ..and teacher call me go rest ..
hahhax ...and recess i din eat la ..so did nothing during recess!
and i'm quite sad in klass today also ..dunoe wads happening
to me also ..ppl ard me just keeps disturbing me ..
sigh~ and after recess was physics and followed by poa!!
and after that ...skool dismissal ..hahax ..and yar ..now i'm chatting with
leha and sejuk ...hahahx ..okay ..till here ..ANNYOUNG!!

Ran @ 10:07 PM

I was daydreaming in klass today ..
hahas ..onli pay attention during physics ..
and the rest of the lessons i was like hack care ..
lols ..i'm becoming more slack than before!!
okays , i say hello to acap for about 2-3 times today ..
hahas ..well..okays ..i'm not feeling too well in skool today ..
was feeling kind of sick ..so went home and rest ..
okays ..till here ..ANNYOUNG!

Ran @ 8:40 PM

Today i reached skool at 735am ..
went straight to klass & i wasn't late still ..
hahax ..lucky me!
and i gotten back ma SS marks ..
12/25 ...fail by half mark ..arghh!!
Rabia got the highest , 14/25 ...
she's good lar ...almost in everithink ...
hahax ...okay ...& lessons today is way too boring ..
& i was slacking in klass ..
all the way till mother tongue then i started to concentrate ..
hehes ...ma MT oral i get 43/50!! wow ..thats high!
ouh ya ..and woonguek and me attacked haini just now in klass ..
hahas ..she tickled woonguek and woonguek was fed up ..
& she make haini back ..and i was there laughing at haini ..
then she charged at me and wanted to tickled me back ..
so me and woonguek was running in klass like mad!
haish ..haini so pitiful ar..being attacked by the both of us ..
maybe tmr gonna make her again , maybe no ..hahas ...
haini is so cute lar ..wahahas ..love eu girl!
kla ..i'll try ma best to stay hapi from now on ..
but if i cant , i got no choice!! i'm tired & sad!!
i will try to stay hapi by making myself to think of BEDAH AKA BADAK!!

Ran @ 9:23 PM

I was slacking in klass all day long ..
and i dun feel lyk listening in klass ..
i just dun know why!
okay , get our klass jersey today ...
& yeah!! ORANGE! nice ~
hahax ..and i had thru-train remedial
after skool just now ...haish , tired larhx ..
after remedial , head back home ...
i feel veri tired tis few days ...
i dun feel lyk doink anithink ...
dun know wad is happening to me ..
haish , i miss you , SYG!! (=
onli you can change my mood ...
otie ...till here ...ANNYOUNG!!(=

Ran @ 8:37 PM

Skool reopens today & i went to skool as usual!
was so tired this morning and i feel lyk sleeping
in klass ...but cant ...as teacher will scold ..
otie , i got back ma eng results ...
i get 17/30 sia!!! quite okay larhx ...
at least i pass!!! but ma eng result drop redi ...
hahax ..cos i never work hard ...i veri bad!!
bedah leg pain ...hahax ...so poor thing ar!!
sori ar girl , just now say "bai kar2 larhx , not my prob also"
hahax ..u noe i just say for fun la ...
lol ...okays , takecare of urself and ur leg!!!
hope it will recover soon!!!
nxt time be more careful not to get urself hurt ya!!
u hurt , i heartpain sia!!! hahax ...
otie , till here ...ANNYOUNG!!!

Ran @ 3:29 PM

halo!!! back to blogging!!
hahax ...okay , didn't blog for the last few days
as i was not at home!!!
alright , i lazy to list out larhx ...
btw , tmr skool reopen lerhx ...
i also dunoe should i be happi or sad ...
lols ..i noe i'm weird!!! hahax ...
otie , gtg ...see ya!!! takkaire!

Ran @ 10:14 PM

went out to watch movie today !!
with esther & tuck keen ...
went entertainment ctr to watch larhx..
actually plan to watch music & lyrics de ..
after that they say wan watch the messengers!!
so , we watched the messengers in the end !
haish , i wanna watch music & lyrics de leh ..
but in the end i followed their choice ..
how good of me arh ..hahax ..its okay larhx ..
hmmms ...after watching we go walk2 awhile
liao then we go home liao lorx ..sianz larhx ..
kkz ... till here bahhx ..ANNYOUNG!!!

Ran @ 9:28 PM

stayed at home!!! urghh!!
i played monopoly with grandma & grandpa!
lols , my grandma won lar ...
hahas ..pro sia!!
well , tmr goink watch "music&lyrics" !!
with esther & tuck keen!! wakakas..
wow , we're goink out tmr!! woots~
okay luhs , awaiting our outing tmr ...
bye ..takkaire!

Ran @ 6:22 PM

stayed at home today ..boredom sia!!
but luckily i have vcds to watch ..
"My Girl" ...nice luhs ...
so damn touching lar ...
well , my hongkong mood shattered already!!
haish3 ...nehminds ...will get to go during september holidays!
hahahahax! lols ..insane me !
okay lar , i not in the mood to blog luhs ..
so thats all for the day bahhx ...

Ran @ 5:43 PM

Didn't post for the last few daes ..
cos was busy with things ..
ohwell , goink to watch MUSIC & LYRICS !!
it seems nice yea !! hahax ...
okay , actually goink hongkong this thursdae !!
and we went to buy the air ticket todae ..
and guess wad , the person sae the flight for return on sundae
all full oredi ...and she sae , is either we go 1 dae earlier & return 1 dae
earlier or we return 1 dae later ...
we goink for 4D3N de ....
go on thursdae and return on sundae ...just nice for skool for the
next dae ...and my grandma dun wann me to be absent from skool
the next dae ...so yea , my aunty cant take leave on wednesdae ...
so we decided not to go ler , goink on september holidaes !!
i was so damn sad-ed lar ...arghhh !!!!
so gotta be patient lor and wait till september holidaes...
at the same time , i'm gonna study hard too ...
get good grades then i can get to go more places !!
so JIAYOU & GAMBATEH !!!
all the best Sindy !!! hahax ...
kla , gotta spend my holidaes in s'pore oredi lor ..
Otey , gonna watch MUSIC & LYRICS one of the daes !!
yupps ..gtg oredi ..bye people ..takkaire !!

Ran @ 7:17 PM

Life's realli though ...
have lorts of ups & downs ...
well , i'm goink to be strong ...
living my life to the fullest !
Bedah will be there for me , i trust her words !

yupps , during recess went to the admin block , middle staircase
there wait for bedah ...
cos she having duty every recess there mah ...
wah , i so damn scared to face her lar ..
when bell ring liao , then she goink come down oredi ..
i was like want to run away quickly lor ..
then she call me "sindy chua" i was like very stress liao ..
then i ignore her , and she say "action sia" ...
so i turn ard and tok to her lor ...
and she wanted to give me hug , but i told her don't ..
as i was sweaty all over ...
then she say okay , & she went to eat lor ..
after that i went back to klass , i was missing her luhs !
and i cant concentrate in klass ...
hahas , well , i gotten back my poa result ...
i failed lar , 5/30 , 17/100 !
pathetic me , i've known abt it long ago ...
haish2 ....holidays oredi , i will be missink her lorts...
for 1 week cant get to see her leh ...
ohmygod ! hope i can tahan hor ...(=
whenever see her , i will be very happy ...
kks lar , will stop here oredi !!!

Bedah , i'll be missink u for this 1 whole week !
harts eu !

Ran @ 8:04 PM

hello !!!
i'm here to update ...
well , had to stay back after skool today
for chinese oral ...
my chinese damn gd lar ..during the oral ,
its chinese rite , i add all the english language
inside and the teacher was like "can eu use chinese"
i was like okay ...hahas ..not too gd with speaking
chinese ...and i'm chatting with bedah in msn now ..
hahas , she rawks lar !!!
i told her lorts of things that i want her to noe ..
and i'm feeling much better now ...
thankiew bedah for listening to me , harts eu !!
well , Zubaidah rawks !!!
i love her so damn much !!
lols , nobody can replaced her in my heart !!
hahas , kks ..i shall stop here oredi !!

You shall never be forgotten !
I have finally let go of the past , & i will cherish
wad i have now !! and thats her !!!
I will forget about the past once & for all
and start anew with my present life , full of joy & laughter!
I love my life the way it is now , and never will i let the past
makes me sad again !
I LOVE SITI ZUBAIDAH & thats ALL (=
and not to be forgotten , ZULAIHA TOO !!
& THATS ALL , NOBODY ELSE !!!

Ran @ 9:15 PM

Ran @ 5:50 PM

hello people !!!
had quite a wonderful today ..
well , i know my chinese marks liao .
Yeah !!! i get 40/60 ..okay liao ..
67/100 liao eh ..satisfied liao !
but will still try harder next time ..
hahas ... and i feel way better after receiving
huiqin's letters ...lols ..thank you !!
yupps ...went to eat pizza after skool with esther & tuck keen
wow ...was so full larX ...
then after that , go jurong east library find huiqin
cos she at there got duty mahX ...
so go find her larX ....hahaX ...
kks ...& i just saw zulaiha once in skool today !
sad-ed larX ...its alright lorX !!!
Girl , you'll always be on my mind no matter wad !
I'm speaking from the bottom of my heart !
Muackks ! ILOVEYOU (=

Ran @ 5:57 PM

hello people !!!
yeah!!! i'm so happy ...
i passed my maths ...wow!!!
i'm so happy !!!

Ran @ 4:42 PM

well , dun feel like posting anything this few daes
so i didn't blog lar ...
well , i chat with leha in msn ...
i feel so happy whenever i chat with her .
i totally feel so wonderful lor.
tell you people , I LOVE HER LOTS!!!
ZRSLF!!!
although i feel so sad and lonely in this world ,
there's always her to be there for me ...
i am so happy and grateful to her !
this world brought me lots of unhappy memories .
i had decided , when i grow up , i'll migrate away from this place
to a faraway place where i can travel round the world
with a peace of mind ...i cant wait to leave this place ..
this world sucks , making people hurt and sad..
whenever i feel sad , i would think of her..
she too is very hurt and sad by people ard her ..
i hope i wun hurt her as well ...i would wanna do wadever..
i can to make her happy everyday ...
i just hate this world and those people ard me ..
i just LOVE HER ONE !!
well , i am not gonna forget in my life , and going to remember
her my whole life ...she is so so so important to me...

people , please stop hurting her ..
please make her happy !!
i am sure you people would wanna see her happy ,
so please let her be happy and stop hurting her , will you all?
I LOVE HER WAY TOO MUCH !!!!!

Ran @ 9:07 PM

Okay , today rained the whole day
hope tomorrow will continue raining like this
so we wun nid tuh run during PE ...
ahhahas ...
so get back physics and geography results today
all not good lar ...i am so disappointed with myself
physics : 10/30
Geography : 13/25
haiish ...see the results sad liao lar
okay lar , will work hard de lar ...
hmmms ..think thats all for the day bahhx
bye .....takkaire ...

Ran @ 7:53 PM