sorry peeps !!! so long never blog alrd
hahas ...well..cos i was not free ..
hmms...that wasn't a good excuse rite ..
its okays ...ahhahs ...Happy CNY !!!
was enjoying yar ..getting angbaos till seh arh ...
hahas ..does that mean i get alot of angbaos ..lols
i didn't said so !!! Boo Boo ...
recently was feeling okays luhhs...
but think that something is gonna happen again !!
cause i sense something not too right !!
well , i am tired lar hor ..
hahas ...enough of all those stupid nonsense lar hor !
my head gonna burst liao lar ...
please god , let me be happy always , and not just for a moment
i am so stress-ed and fan ...feel like dying lar hor !!!
i need my friends to be around me !!
be there for me , care for me , share my troubles with me ..
but why is heaven taking away all my friends one by one ...
i had enough of all this lar hor ...
something is gonna happen again to her and me ...
maybe i am just imagining too much luhhs ...
i hope that its only my imagination lar ...
dun let it come true or become real ...
what had i done ?! i dont know !!!
i make mistakes once , and that doesn't means i will make
the mistakes always ...you still having suspicion towards me?!
haiish , i dont know ..i rather you dun tok to me at all in the first place
stop giving me all this hopes when you are not even gonna really
trust me and watsoever again ...
i tot we can be okays together again lerh ..
but now i dunnoe what happen again liao ...
that kind of feeling is killing me lar hor ! i cant take it anymore !!!
arghhh ...watever lar ...i guess i am gonne lock myself in my
own world again lerhhs ...till she open her mouth and talk to me ...
i am stressed and had enough of all those nonsense ...

why dont you just kill me ?
why dont you just tell me you still hate me?
why must you give me hopes again?
i rather die than to live in misery .....
i am being left alone in this world ..
i wanna go back to the past , but can i ?
i fake a smile everyday , but deep down , i am crying and hurt !

please take me away from this world !
never let me be tortured anymore !

Ran @ 4:55 PM